Rats

Aren't they a sight for sore eyes?

I emailed my parents, again, regarding the money they promised me for fixing up my house. And i postulated that they don't trust me with it. I am so tired of them and their ways. It sucks all the energy out of me, and the thought of having to see them very soon makes me want to leave the country. Yes, maybe it's an overreaction of a spoiled 31 yr old child. Maybe it isn't. I have wished so many times that my parents didn't have money, but were nice people who make me feel loved. I feel nothing but anxiety when i think of them. And i don't really know why that still is. Probably because they keep pretending and i keep falling for it.

Because i still want to believe.

Well, enough of that! There's plenty of the good stuff in my life.
Went to the Impakt festival with my best friend. We saw lots of short films at the AV-BBQ and with floating cinema (that's when we were on a boat with a large screen and some cushions steering through the Utrecht canals). There was also something very cool, where we had to sit in a room which filled itself with smoke, so that we could only see for 20 cm. Then there was some sort of light show, and the effects it had on us were awesome. Caleidoscopic through the smoke.

My computer is up and running XP. That's about it for now, haha. But i will stuff it along the way.